.venting.
When you find the man you love, he can do no wrong. Until that instance where you begin to wonder...why would he do that? Was it something I did to provoke it or was that just something he does that I never knew he did.Then it happens again.
This provokes your first fight.
The fight broadcasts your emotions and love for each other - which ensures your first make-up.
As time goes on, you begin to fall, deeper and deeper until you reach the point where you know, without a doubt, you're truly in love.
He does it again.
And again...
And again.
Finally you realize you can't take it, decide to look out for yourself, and let go.
This KILLS you inside, but you think this is best.
And besides - once your mind is made up, there's no going back, for the sole sake of keeping your word.
Every. single. time you see him you think of the times you used to share.
What you used to do.
How much you're still in love...But you also think of why it can no longer be.
Because it alone is what's keeping you from apologizing and getting things back to what you had.
Back to perfection.
Time passes.
You Ignore.
You Forget.
You Move On.
It becomes easier but no sooner than it takes seasons to change..
You feel as though you owe yourself the chance to move on, to be happy and to find another.
Then you see him.
Moved on.
Happy.
With another.
Wasn't this supposed to happen? Didn't you tell yourself he wasn't right for you? Didn't you make the request to move on? Yes..
So again the process begins.
Forget.
Ignore.
Move on.
Nothing else to do.
You've made your decision and so has he.
Dec 28, 2009