whEre were You?
Where were you today when I needed you??
You were no where to be found. Today when I found out that my cousin was killed over a senseless argument with her mentally messed up boyfriend? And, more upsetting, that her TWO daughters were in the house when it happened? I looked for you, not so much to cry to, but at least to complain to. whY is this the 4th family member I've lost in 2 months? There is H A T E in my city [{now more than ever maybe}] and everywhere, really. Now that I need YoU, I can't find you. You don't even care...
My head knows this, but my heart won't accept it. I feel like my head and my heart are making me crazy. I say crazy 'cause one day I'll be over your bullsh-t and ready to ignore you and treat you in the same heartless manner you treat me. But then, with enough "i love you"s and "i miss you"s I'm right back to folding to your every request.
I don't quite understand it so I wouldn''t blame you if you're confused. Just know that I needed you, today like other days, and you weren't here.